Happiness might not be so great

Okayyy so it wasnt till today I began to think my happiness can have a somewhat negative effect on me.I see myself at times almost heartless, let me explain more today my family faced a death of someone very close to us and idk despite for a moment i couldnt feel sad well i could but i just pushed it way in the back of me cuz I rather smile.Then I began to analyze my past and i tend to do this alot this might be a problem tho i love to be the happy person its a bit scary when it cant be turned off, im a bit scared my happiness might result in a catastrophe

My s/n as we know it

OK so I guess I wanted to devote some time to addressing my s/n Funsiz3dNai...it obviously points out the fact that I'm Fun sized but as I've been subjected to the asinine behavior of society,these horny boys seem to think its sexual when its really not.So let me give you a little history years ago there was a popular candy that was named Fun sized because it was so tiny.When one is called Fun sized it is simply because they are so little if you know me it is obvious I'm like a whole 3 inches tall. So I fail to see why it never fails that someone is either appalled or excited my s/n somehow equates to me being a freak...but lol i think you guys got the point so please in the future before you kno for a fact the definition or meaning of something dont be so quick to assume you can just ask!